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whiski_sourSo, yeah, I do believe I discussed at some point that I managed to gain back all the weight I lost. Well, I haven't managed to lose any since this revelation and I'm not sure that I haven't gained any.
I started a new exercise regime in February. I've done really well with the eating vegetables thing. I still need to work on eating more fruit. I thought I was on track to turning things around and yet...nada.
I'm not happy with this. My self-esteem has taken a huge hit. Part of it is because nothing I own fits anymore. Part of it is because they posted pictures from the family reunion and the weight gain is really showing. Most of it, though, is because I failed. I swore that I would never gain this weight back. Even if I never lost another pound, that forty I lost would stay lost.
It didn't happen.
Normally, I find a way to soldier on, pulling myself up by my bootstraps and whatnot, but I'll be honest, I'm depressed to begin with so my resistence is very low. This is just adding insult to injury as far as I'm concerned.
I'm going to keep working at it and ignore the hypochondria that's telling it might be related to something I haven't been diagnosed with. I have noticed tiny bits of progress in certain areas, so that's something.
I guess.
I started a new exercise regime in February. I've done really well with the eating vegetables thing. I still need to work on eating more fruit. I thought I was on track to turning things around and yet...nada.
I'm not happy with this. My self-esteem has taken a huge hit. Part of it is because nothing I own fits anymore. Part of it is because they posted pictures from the family reunion and the weight gain is really showing. Most of it, though, is because I failed. I swore that I would never gain this weight back. Even if I never lost another pound, that forty I lost would stay lost.
It didn't happen.
Normally, I find a way to soldier on, pulling myself up by my bootstraps and whatnot, but I'll be honest, I'm depressed to begin with so my resistence is very low. This is just adding insult to injury as far as I'm concerned.
I'm going to keep working at it and ignore the hypochondria that's telling it might be related to something I haven't been diagnosed with. I have noticed tiny bits of progress in certain areas, so that's something.
I guess.
